Well I'm at it again.. yup, I've gone and quit something else!
This time it's pretty unexpected.
I have quit school.
I have had it on my "To Do" list since January in big red letters.
FINISH SCHOOL
Then it occurred to me that I had a Problem. Yes with a capital "P".
For the first time, I wasn't jazzed to be going back to school in September.
I'm getting to the point in the program where I HAVE to do certain things to "graduate".
Like Art History. Don't get me wrong. I love the masters.
I draw inspiration of Ansel Adams and Vivian Maier and pray to one day be half as talented.
But I wasn't totally thrilled at being told I HAD to study them (and pay $450 to do it) to be a "qualified" photographer.
I was way MORE excited to sign up to volunteer at the UBC farm. And learn why my tomatoes are late this year but my peas went crazy!
"School"was becoming something I complained about the way I USED to complain about my career.
So I asked myself.. "why am I doing this?"
And it was because I felt I HAD to. People expected me to.
"I'm in school" was an easy way of explaining why I left my corporate job.
There was no "Because I WANT to," in there.
I am, by no means, "quitting" on Photography. I love it. And I want to KEEP loving it.
It's kinda like, "If you love something set it free".
So I'm going to set my photography free for the next 4 months. I'm just quitting the thing that was making it a chore, not a joy.
And in the process, I will open up my mind, my soul and my time to finding NEW joys, new passions and new inspirations. All of which, I'm sure, I will happily record on film :)
Now THAT'S what I call Freedom.
Savary Island Aug 2011 ©louisekelaher2011
This time it's pretty unexpected.
I have quit school.
I have had it on my "To Do" list since January in big red letters.
FINISH SCHOOL
Then it occurred to me that I had a Problem. Yes with a capital "P".
For the first time, I wasn't jazzed to be going back to school in September.
I'm getting to the point in the program where I HAVE to do certain things to "graduate".
Like Art History. Don't get me wrong. I love the masters.
I draw inspiration of Ansel Adams and Vivian Maier and pray to one day be half as talented.
But I wasn't totally thrilled at being told I HAD to study them (and pay $450 to do it) to be a "qualified" photographer.
I was way MORE excited to sign up to volunteer at the UBC farm. And learn why my tomatoes are late this year but my peas went crazy!
"School"was becoming something I complained about the way I USED to complain about my career.
So I asked myself.. "why am I doing this?"
And it was because I felt I HAD to. People expected me to.
"I'm in school" was an easy way of explaining why I left my corporate job.
There was no "Because I WANT to," in there.
I am, by no means, "quitting" on Photography. I love it. And I want to KEEP loving it.
It's kinda like, "If you love something set it free".
So I'm going to set my photography free for the next 4 months. I'm just quitting the thing that was making it a chore, not a joy.
And in the process, I will open up my mind, my soul and my time to finding NEW joys, new passions and new inspirations. All of which, I'm sure, I will happily record on film :)
Now THAT'S what I call Freedom.
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